23rd May 2013, Thursday

Traumatizing evening.

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The Journey

 

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As I was making my way home earlier, I sank into my reflective mode and figured that Life is like a train journey.

At every station, new people from all walks of life will come into your life, while others leave. The thing is, you will never know who are the ones who will walk in or out, at which stage of your life. But its exciting because the people are ever changing. There will be a few who will stand by you to the very end. But there will also be people who will alight at the next station. It all depends on where they want to go. Let them be, they will be happier.

At some point of time, the train may be crowded with passengers and in other times, there could be no one at all. But the train won’t stop just because no one is on board. It moves on to the next and subsequent stations. I guess that’s something we should all learn- that life goes on no matter what comes.

There are many stations, which are like the different stages in life. At some stages, there will be more than one track, also what we know as the interchange. This is where we will make the decision to keep moving on the same track, or to embark on a whole new journey. The choices we make will therefore determine our final destination.

How, do we then make our journey an exciting and memorable one?

 

“Life is a journey, with problems to solve, lessons to learn, but most of all, experiences to enjoy.” – Ritu Ghatourey

Chasing an Illusion

“It’s just like the picture of a donkey, dragging a cart, with its owner dangling  carrot just in front of the donkey’s nose. The donkey’s owner may be going where he wants to go, but the donkey is chasing an illusion.”

– Robert T. Kiyosaki, Rich Dad Poor Dad

Mr Cabbie

After spending the whole of my afternoon in the office, I decided to cab home today.

Upon boarding the cab, there was a group of adults, probably in their mid 20s who just ended the St. Patrick’s Day celebration across the road. I was a few steps in front of them and since the cab was already there, I took a shortcut to the taxi (the cabbie had already nodded at me when I waved and knew that I was going to board his cab) instead of waiting at the queuing area(no one was in the queue).

When I got onto the cab, the group of adults starred at me as if I cut their queue.

At the same time, Mr Cabbie asked, “are those your friends?”

“No, they’re not.” I replied after telling him my destination.

“They were starring at you when you board and I thought you guys were together.”

“Yea, but no. They probably just ended the celebration across the road.” I explained.

“Their stare was as if you cut their queue. Which is not what I saw cos I saw you walking in front of them.”

“Haha, doesn’t matter, uncle. I don’t really care. I didn’t do anything wrong.”

“Yah, I don’t care too. Even if they got on the cab before you I wouldn’t let them, because you came first!”

“Haha, thank you uncle. Thank you so much.” I said with a smile.

“These people, really inconsiderate. Thank goodness I picked you instead. At least I won’t feel as tired as I already am.” Mr Cabbie said with a long sigh.

“About to end your shift?”

He sighed again and said in Chinese, “Every household has their own set of problems. I’d rather keep driving and not go home.”

I daren’t ask more. But as we spoke, he told me that he has been a single parent to 3 boys aged between 11-19 for the past eight years. Things hasn’t been going very well for him, especially his relationship with two of his older sons.

He said,”When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. It’s true, you know? That is what I have been telling myself since my wife passed on. Things have already happened, what else can I do? Things will not improve if I dwell on it. I need to do something and here am I, fortunately doing something I like, to drive. But unfortunately, this job of mine needs to support a family, which is so tough. I wrote all my expenses on a list and looked at it, wishing I could cut down some of them. But no, I couldn’t. Allowence for the kids, grocery shopping, bills and everything else.”

Halfway through the conversation, he said,”sometimes, all I wish for is a glass of water from them when I come home from work.”

It made me realise that it really is not the huge and fanciful things that people treasure. Instead, it is those little acts of love that mean most.

He continued sharing some of the things going on in his life. Mr Cabbie said that he is one who tends to blame himself whenever things go wrong. This was pretty evident as he blamed himself for talking to me too much when I gave him the wrong direction. Yes, it wasn’t his fault at all but he still blamed himself for it.

He also told me that after working for 3 consecutive weeks, he decided to take a break yesterday and spent his day watching television at home. “I just heck it. To me, what’s most important is when you value and make the best out of each day. I have worked so hard for the past 3 weeks and I know I deserve a little break. This is very important. Because we really won’t know when is our life going to end.”

Before I alighted, he said,”Thank you for helping me let some steam off. Good luck in life!”

I cannot be anymore thankful to have board this cab home. This uncle taught me such a valuable lesson and I truly wish that everything will go smoothly for him.

Thank You for the wonderful journey home, Mr Lim.

Dare To Be

When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully.

When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light.

When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it.

When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.

When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.

When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.

When you’re feeling tired, dare to keep going.

When times are tough, dare to be tougher.

When love hurts you, dare to love again.

When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal.

When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.

When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.

When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.

When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great too.

When the day has ended, dare to feel as you’ve done your best.

Dare to be the best you can –

At all times, Dare to be!

– Steve Maraboli

Destination

Stay focused on your goal.

It’s not going to be easy, no one ever said it is. When things are tough, remind yourself the reasons why you started this journey. Stay very, very positive. You’ve gotta believe that you can because if you don’t, who else will?

You’re not fighting this battle alone.

So Blessed!

“Hahahha aww you’re so sweet joanne. You too if u have exams! Meet up soon!”

I just received this text from a girlfriend whom I texted to check if she is okay because her tweets looked worrying. She’s good, which is great. But the first thing that came to my mind was not “hehe aww, she’s too kind” or anything of that sort.

What came to my mind was– I am so blessed and all the credit should go to the amazing people around me.

So blessed for having such a lovely family who drowns me with a lot of love. So much so that I can share them with the people around me. Blessed for having wonderful parents who taught me the right things. Thank you papa, mommy, Kev and Kenn. Yall are the best people I can ever ask for in my life!

So blessed for having my cousins and close friends around me and inspire me so much that helped me shape the person I am today. They make me want to be a better person with whatever I have. Thank you all lovely people!

So blessed for my bestfriend for sharing the things she go through so that I can try to understand what she’s going through and encourage her to keep going. She played a huge role in shaping me into who I am today. Yes, so important that she deserves special mention. Thank you for everything everything, love!

So blessed to be able to touch lives and paint smiles on faces. So blessed to be who I am and the people I have in my life. It makes me really happy when people around me are happy. It’s a kind of happiness that I cannot describe. So blessed for everything that I think the very least I can do is to help more people smile.

I find that as I grow older, it gets tougher to share about life and such. I’m grateful for those who are always there to hear me out. Your love and understanding have inspired me to pass on the love. You know who you are, thank you! And I hope that my friends (or if anyone who are willing to share) will know that I will be here for them like how my Angels have been here for me.

To those who have told me about how I’ve touched your life, thank you so much! Thank you for allowing me to and for being in my life. It is such an honour to have people like you in my life.

Thank You! :’)

Ps, sorry for the unorganised thoughts. There’s so much for me to be thankful for, really! :’)

The Heart and The Head II

If you love someone or something, you will not wish for anything in return because the best return is giving love. But if you’re waiting for a return, you probably do not love the person/thing as much as you think you do.

I guess that’s how you tell when you really love something.

Rough Week Ahead

This week’s agenda:
Monday: Class, Meeting, Test and Presentation
Tuesday: Class, Meeting
Wednesday: Class, Meeting and Presentation
Thursday: Class, Meeting
Friday: Class, Presentation and Root Canel Surgery

I must, must, must remind myself that after this week, things will be a lot better.

Anyway, breakfast with bff and Louis this morning was fantastic. We were trying to remember people from our Primary School and caught up after not seeing Louis for 8 years. Can’t believe that I’ve known them for more than a decade! Feel really grateful for friends like them because its always funny to recall the silly things we did those days. Memories, memories.

Back to work!

Hello, February

So Twitter’s (was) down.

Before I hit the sacks, I thought I’d to sum up my January and set a goal for the new month.

It had been a crazy busy month with meetings almost every day. Yes, busy is a good problem. Over busy is… well, depends on how one sees it but let’s just say its an even better problem. The craziness is ending in approximately two weeks’ time. I’m already looking forward to the end of next week- 3 presentations, revision lectures, project consultation, test, quiz and many meetings. This excludes studying for main papers in three weeks’ time. Hang in there, Joanne!

The first month of 2013 wasn’t exactly smooth, but I learnt so much things that only experiences can teach. And I am extremely grateful to be blessed with these experiences, both good and bad ones, that allow me to grow as a person and see things from different perspectives.

In this new month, I hope to stay positive and try to look for the smallest things to be grateful for, no matter how tough things get.

I hope February will be a good month of everybody out there! Have a great month ahead! 🙂